Summer-Movin'!!

HELLO!!!! I meant to post a blog in August… but Man! Good part of this summer seems to have totally slipped by me! Then again….No! Not really! Two months were focused around coordinating a residential move! I got a lot done this summer…from searching for and finding my new place to leaving my old one etc..!

Since I’m one of those people that went from a very sheltered and controlled upbringing to a similar set-up through most of my adult married life….I seem to have spent the last few years since my separation and divorce practicing standing on my own two feet per say figuratively and profoundly. I’ve been working on finding my voice, my thoughts, my entire sense of self…etc. etc…and it’s all going very well!! :-)

Since I’ve been blessed with a new chance at living….I could relate to 'Little Mermaid' standing on magical mother earth for the first time with her two initially wobbly but soon to be fabulously strong legs.  BIG YAY!! Strong legs I have found too thank goodness!!...And speaking of fairytales… I can also relate to Goldilocks’ experiences with testing out the three bear’s habitat. Getting started a few years ago I first moved into a fully furnished place which I loved but it didn’t feel right, then I moved into my first apartment the second year which I filled up with basic semi-functional (as in it looks good but breaks easily) Ikea furnishings….it felt comfortable but really not quite there….then this time….finally I moved into a small townhouse…which all clichés aside… it really does feel like home…in an incredibly cozy and spiritual sense! Grateful so much! Like Goldie loving all that belonged to little bear this little house fits me so perfectly right here right now! <3

I tackled my move a bit uniquely. First I spent a couple of weeks prior to the move getting rid of all my furniture and most of my physical belongings. Scary but liberating too…that when you closely evaluate everything in your space you quickly realize that you really don’t need much of it after all…Go figure!.…I deemed this my ‘Feng-Shui project’!  This process was intense and interesting mentally and physically …surprisingly reflective, draining, uplifting and totally cleansing in every imaginable way.…helping me to let go of lots more than I realized. Going through stuff I discovered old letters from my now deceased mother and from my ex which were like finding windows into my soul..almost literally… It helped shed a few tears over baggage I didn’t even realize I was carrying in the first place. What a privilege of an experience it’s been! I found a lot of peace through the process for sure!

Then came the next project of refurnishing my new space from scratch with a strict budget...which was of course exhausting and challenging but also incredibly illuminating and refreshing for my soul.

This project held new found intrigue and obsession for me as I was inspired to fill my home with things that I carefully and thoughtfully picked out piece by piece. Interesting that I have never taken such dedication towards setting up a home before! Go figure! I have decided that everyone should experience caring about setting up a physical home space at least once in their lifetime…and I am glad for this experience! I realized I wanted my furniture to have purpose...as in to feel inviting... to say ‘come, sit, relax and talk to me’…versus…it just serves it’s very basic purpose.….just because it does!!...You know what I mean!!?

Crazy thing is that somewhere deep down I think I was curious to see what I would create…what colors or theme I would choose and why, what wall décor would best represent who I am becoming…..It even left me rather anxious… to see the final outcome….as if I was unveiling my own soul layer by layer in the process….as if in the end I would find a mirror to peek into…to find myself….to find me who was once lost and now found…. Wondering how could I have gotten through so many years allowing myself to not know who I am really or what I want to stand for..…Yup it sounds odd but the house felt like a significant project for this stage of my life.

Interestingly enough yesterday as I placed one of the last pieces of décor onto the wall I asked my son his opinion on it…and he said he loved it. I was relieved as I said ‘Ok so it’s not crazy then!’ To this he responded ‘OH but of course it’s crazy Mom…and daring even….which is perfect…because it represents you… it suits your personality.’ What an odd thing to hear from my eleven year old! LOL!

The coolest thing too is that in finding myself….I am also finding many of my soul friends and family who share my values…many it turns out even live in my new neighborhood.…what an incredibly luxurious blessing! Amazing that people and places I feel are starting to reflect back my daily choices….to promote comfort, peace, love and harmony. I can’t believe there was a time when I believed nothing mattered…to now when I believe that everything does.…and absolutely Everyone! Now more than ever my gratitude list never ceases to grow or amaze me. I am home!

Loving-living- life-inspired!
Namaste! XO