It's been almost six years since I started this blog, so I could share my Eureka moments, because for the first time in my
adult years I was finally starting to show up awake for experiences in everyday life.
Over the last four years, however, I
started writing less and less. Mainly because of a lack of time but also because the lessons I was learning repeatedly took me longer to accept.
They say we learn from our mistakes;
but the truth is that we learn all the time, from all sorts of unexpected
experiences. We are left constantly processing conflicting messages that can
easily leave us exponentially more confused over time.
For example, life has taught me
that innocent people can get caught in the crossfire randomly, that doing the
right thing may cost somebody an arm and a leg, or worse, and that life just isn’t
easy - because bad things happen and it can happen to anybody at any time.
There are no absolute rules and formulas in life because there are never any
guarantees. Every choice we make is a chance we take, in the hopes of reaching
some desired outcome, while holding our breath and praying that it works.
So, we learn to adjust what we
think we know at every step; and often the biggest challenge lies in just staying
positive and finding peace within ourselves, which not only translates to
prioritizing saving what matters most- i.e. our souls, but also to being
available to do right by others.
The path to re-centering after
each storm and cleansing my energy again and again, I have found however, does
follow a dependable formula – For me, that is taking the time to meditate,
reviewing my gratitude list and finding the strength inside to keep moving; But
the formula only works if applied after indulging myself in reflection of self
and surroundings, giving myself permission to wallow in the confusing
experiences, acknowledging my thoughts and feelings, without judgement towards
myself or others, and then when I allow all that to wash over me, I am ready to
apply the predictive formula towards healing and rebuilding. Staying positive
comes easier to me but staying present however has always been a huge challenge
so I am grateful for this formula.
My dear and wise husband always
says that every choice we make adds towards creating the kind of world that we
want ourselves and our children to live in. I love the sense of control that this
belief gives me, especially when I am feeling powerless or saddened by the senseless
injustices that I see happening all around me.
Yes, life is not easy and it is much
easier to get lost in that fact, but the real work that is required from us, I
believe, is to make an effort daily, mindfully, to be at our best, to see the
best in everything and everyone…..because perception becomes reality, and an
illusion of control becomes more than an illusion.
In seeing the good around us, we build
our faith in it, which in turn creates an abundance of goodness for ourselves
and others. This is within our power, to choose and to create goodness.